Now, at age 22, I find out that I am her.
I have the same medical issues as her, so I am finding out and will even go to certain extremes about it. I reach out for attention and say that I don't want the physical but I also know that I am going to these people for a reason. We change men about as often as we flip the calendar to the next month. My life is a very selfish one, like hers. We both still mooch off of our parents and many many more.
My biggest fear was to turn out like her. I failed.
How do I get out of this? Do I have to change everything about me?
Can I get out of this? As my journey marked out to walk in her footsteps forever?
4 comments:
i never knew your mother, but i know you, and you are pry the most selfless girls i know. You dont have to change anything about you for the people who love you to realize you are an amazing person...everyone has issues, as do you, if you want to overcome them you can...you know what im talking about, love ya, matt
Do you know you are a daughter of a Heavenly Father and that you can become like Him someday? He loves you so much and wants you to be happy. Christ is your bother and would love to take your burdens on Himself if you will let Him.
It sounds like you're doing great as far as not being selfish goes. It also sounds like you are being too hard on yourself. I know I have said this before but trying to live the "mother Teresa" lifestyle will always leave you feeling like a failure... that's not what Christ would want. Of course you don't want to be selfish but SELFLESS???... does that even make sense? If you were always selfless all the time you would die... think about it. You want to live an UNSELFISH life while at the same time taking what you need to survive and thrive on this earth--don't feel bad for that. Life is a balance. Pray to find the right balance for you. Keep your desire to work with children and go for it! That is a wonderful thing but don't feel bad for taking care of YOU. It must be that way! I'll say it again, Mother Teresa had it WRONG! She did great things but that is not Christ-like living at its fullest. I hope you find happiness. I will keep checking back with you. I think about you often and hope you are okay.
-Drennan
In the last post I accidently wrote Christ is your bother, I of course didn't mean that, I meant He is your BROTHER...oops
Often, if we focus on what we aren't to do, we fall into their power --
The strength and change comes when we focus on what we should do. (And *sigh* yes, it is easier said than done.) By focusing on what we ought to do -- we will find that we don't have time anymore for the things that hold us back and down.
I -- even though I know you not, will be praying for you. Remember -- Christ has claimed the victory, and He will not give us anything that we can not through Him overcome.
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