Expectations are Overrated

Is it ok to not have any expectations of people? Is that the way life was meant to be lived?

I hate having expectations because I hate thinking any less of people when they don't live up to what I think they should, or could. They make me want to use the word "disappointed" as if I have some authority over them to use it, but I don't have any right.

I find myself getting depressed and really upset when people don't do what I think they are going to do. Like when people say they want to hang out tomorrow, I expect that they mean in the afternoon to early night, not 11 at night when everything to do is closed. And when I would drop everything I am doing to do something for someone else I expect the same treatment on occassion, not for video games and hanging out with people who have no interest in their well being to be picked over me. When I am comfortable enough to share my life story with you I expect you to respect that relationship enough to treasure it some, not extort it whenever you feel the need to get a good laugh. Then when people find themselves comfortable enough to call me out on things because they know me better than I know myself I expect that to be a thing to help the relationship move along smoother, not used to their advantage and my detriment to leave me merely as a punching bag just because they know they can. Or if I wait twenty some years to meet the people who left me I expect to barely be acknowledged and maybe receive a Christmas card or something, not for them to really want me around constantly and for them to come and try to change my whole life.

Most of the time I don't even feel like my expectations are high, I actually find them pretty low. Is it too much to ask for your close friends to chose to want to hang out with you one night every once in awhile? Isn't it realistic to think that your close friends would keep things secret when asked?

See expectations are overrated and just lead to personal disappointment. So why do I continue to have any hope that the next time might be different when I know I'm just going to end up hurt yet again?