Never would have guessed it...

Ok, so I think God is reminding me of all my old passions and bringing them out one by one. Today while everyone was swimming in the pond I was sitting on the pier giving financial advice. Anything from school loans to credit cards to credit reports to tax write-offs was mentioned. It was crazy how I could sit around and explain these things to my peers. I did not even realize how much knowledge I had but all of my jobs put me in a position to advise them. Hopefully I made some sense though and I helped someone.

First thing this morning I got to watch Amber teach 3 kids English. It was a cool process as they were so willing to learn! But I had enough in the classroom after an hour and decided to go play in childcare with Dora, Roberto, and another little girl. I love playing with kids (and acting like one too). Plus I could not help but think about the little Bantu kids in Fort Wayne, I hope they are doing well.

I decided today that this life is not for me. I talked to Amber and other Jubilee volunteers and I gained so much respect for them and all the hard work they put in for the sake of the community and for no financial gain. They take care of each other and demonstrate the Acts Church so well but this is one intentional community that I just could not live in. However, I love the ideas behind it and was made aware of urban intentional communities that help the homeless and visit prisons. Now that is my kind of life! I hope I can get in to visit this week! Homeless shelter here I come!

I am very thankful that amidst my bad attitude that I have such a great friend like Amber who can just let me be so open and honest. As I tried to shake my bad attitude from last night I was dealt some tragic news that broke my heart all day. Being away from friends when they are going through hard times is going to be hard for me.

Tonight I finally felt ok with being at Jubilee and found serenity in my circumstances. God’s creation is so beautiful when it is not tampered with by humans who think they can make it look better. I started to smile again and have a good time as I sat by the lake and as I watched a thunderstorm. I hope I get more moments to just sit and enjoy creation.