"Jesus never made a pristine call to a proper of safe religion. Jesus beckons His followers to a path that is far from the easy road. It is a path filled with adventure, uncertainty, and unlimited possibilities-- the only path that can fulfill the deepest longings and desires of your heart. This is the barbarian way: to give your heart to the only One who can make you fully alive. To love Him with simplicity and intensity. To unleash the untamed faith within. To be consumed by the presence of a passionate and compassionate God. To go where He sends you, no matter the cost" -Erwin McManus
Lately I have really been into puzzles and trying to decide what my final result is going to look like once all the pieces finally come together. This disastrous masterpiece might not make sense to anyone who looks at it, but it will bring me the piece and comfort I have been longing for. It might even incorporate ideas that I have never thought of or that the church would ever recommend, but that is what makes me so excited and ready for the puzzle to come clear.
Many are already dismissing themselves as being part of my puzzle and I am also learning how to fit certain people in, but this has been very hard for me to grasp in the past few months. Letting people go is never easy for me, but for the purpose of fulfilling my deepest longings and desires of my heart, it sometimes seems necessary to let go of things that keep holding me back and preventing me from loving God as intensely as I should because generally I pour myself into others and forget about spending time with the God who wants to pour into me.
School is another puzzle piece that I cannot decide if it fits or not, but yet I continue to pay thousands of dollars into it instead of investing financially in others or investing my time into pursuing what I am being called to do or become. Essentially it might fit into my career piece in the future, but why am I wasting time now doing something that may never benefit the puzzle?
Work has been the main focus of my puzzle as of lately. My dream job has became available in my not so dream place at a not so dream time, so where does that leave me? Do I throw this puzzle piece in and hope that other pieces around it just adapt or is this the missing piece that makes everything else click just right?
The questions are definitely unending, but how God translates and rearranges the pieces is the idea of living as a Christian. However, excepting the crazy ideas and not living the normal expected way seems to be the Barbarian living inside of me screaming to try and understand the untamed faith within, no matter the cost. Am I ready for this outrageous adventure that lies ahead?
6 comments:
I just wanted to tell you that I like you a lot! Decisions are so hard and I will be praying that God shows you the way but don't be afraid to take what he has in store for you! Love ya
Embark on that journey, Marci! And if people don't want to join your side and support you on your path, well...that's on them. You'll find out who your friends are by looking behind you and seeing who's got your back.
marci, "The barbarian spirit dreams great dreams and finds the courage to live them." you have been encouraging me so much lately to live radically different from so many other Christians. the barbarian way, eh? i am praying that you will have the courage to follow your dreams wherever they lead you now.
go go go!
and good luck!
I am as big of a Dreamer as anyone as you know. I love to risk and move and change and JUMP!! But what I have been learning is that I have to be careful that my love for the adventure doesn't cloud the right course for my life. I am in NO WAY saying don't go. I am saying that it takes wisdom, patience and intimate talks with God for me to see where and when the spirit of God is leading. I am learning that the most important thing is to go where God is moving rather than asking Him to join my dream.
It's my prayer that the adventure as GREAT as the intent and journey it would be does not cloud your judgement when seeking what to do next. I will definitely be praying for you that God would meet you in a supernatural way and help guide you through this experience! And thought it may be hard now imagine how great the reward and the stories you will tell on the flip side of what God did whether you stay or go because regradless of our dreams He always has an AMAZING ADVENTURE for us to live! Thanks and love ya!!
I hope it all comes together for you..
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